so, things i havent said here... im expecting a girl and while i dont want to say i was disappointed by that news i did spend four months praying there would be a penis in one of those ultrasound pictures. it only took me a week to decide it wasnt the worst possible case scenario. after all there are things like clubfoot and autism. i guess thats a touch shittier than dresses and pigtails.
and yes ive been trying to name her, and tho i change my mind too much to stick to anything i do keep coming back to bailey. the only thing i dont like about it is that it doesnt shorten and ive also heard it might be somewhat popular (??) ..ive never met another one and it didnt rank in the ssa top 100. while i have gotten mostly positive responses, someone said it sounds like a name for a dog. another thot the middle name ought to be irish cream and someone else said it reminds them of the circus. but of course i would not be posting it here unless i expected some feedback so please, let me know what you think and suggest away.

3 bites away from a diabetic coma

ive made it past the halfway mark and im still hemorrhoid free! but i am getting pretty goddamn fat. my first couple monthly weigh ins i had actually lost a few pounds. i ate a whole cake, about 4 dozen chocolate chip cookies and a pecan pie and i was SURE i had gained at least 20 pounds but the doctors scale said 4 which lead me to believe i was totally invincible. then i went to my parents house for mashed potatoes and gravy thanksgiving and apparently it all caught up with me. i went from needing a belt with my jeans to not being able to button them comfortably in a matter of 3 days. when i went for my next appointment they made me get on the scale twice cos they thot they had read my 12 pound gain incorrectly. damnit that was kind of embarrassing.
ive been feeling movement for about 6 weeks now at first like little flutters when ide lay very still and over the past few weeks its gotten a lot stronger to where it almost startles me. its pretty fucking awesome really. knowing it will end in just a few short months makes me a little sad but i'll probably be too busy and tired to think about it by then. crazy its taken 5 and a half months to really hit me that im going to be somebodys mommy soon, its still kind of strange to think about.