baby face

this pic is 2 1/2 weeks ago when she was already something over 6 lbs.


i cant poop my belly button hurts i have stabbing vagina pains. fyi.

im gaining weight right.... now

im due in like 5 weeks and i still havent decided on a name! i had one all picked out for a few mos and then i changed my mind (or have i?? ..shit) and now im drawing a blank on the whole thing. im tired of even thinking about it. i have to say the stupidest thing i could have done is let other people talk me into telling them what names i was considering cos everyone seems to have an opinion however unsolicited and i couldnt care less so i end up saying bitchy things to them and discarding names i was okay with just in spite of them. people are seriously pissing me the fuck off lately. just because this is my first baby everyone i talk to has some bullshit to tell me like somehow i couldnt go thru it without their input and advice. ugh, really i would rather totally fuck up on my own than have someone else tell me what to do or how to do it. people are even trying to tell me what furniture i need to move around and what needs to go where. i know they're all trying to be helpful etc but its getting hard to keep up the smile and nod routine. thus far my mother is the only person smart enough to keep her mouth shut and listen. for possibly the first time ever, but its a welcome change.