Saturday, July 15, 2006

filial cannibalism

before we were together, tapeworm took me and helen to a party for some dude he worked with and jacque found out about it and called tapeworm to ask why she hadn't been invited and he said, "cos I didn't want you to act like a slut and embarrass me."

when jacque was 12, her mom cut her a line and told her to do it. or they'd never be close. her stepdad was a former alcoholic/child molester, all crazy into the 12 step thing and they hid everything from him but I'm sure he had to know something was going on when no one ever slept and her mom blew glass 16 hours a day. jacque thought he was watching her through a hole in her bedroom wall. he had been convicted of sexual abuse of his daughter; the same girl jacque and her oldest brother were sleeping with. I met jacque in 1997, I was 15 and soon after that I was going to her house after school to buy dope from her mom. just like the rest of her friends.

she had to be the center of everyones attention and seldom was. the year we met we both unknowingly liked the same boy, derek. he rode her bus and one day he told her he was into me and she flipped out and tried to hit me over it. she said she knew it wasn't my fault, but she was still mad.

when jacque had a bad day at school, her mom cut her a line and told her she was too sensitive. jacque said she vaguely remembered her mom molesting her as a young girl. her 8 year old brother came to stay 2 weekends a month and she wondered if her mom was molesting him now, too.

jacque said she was afraid to quit, cos she knew that meant she wouldn't have a mom anymore. I tried to tell her that she didn't have one as it was.

Anonymous Thomas, the retarded monkey thinks I am a total genius.

Oh wow. It's almost like a David Lynch movie... only better. But honestly, a girl called Jacque - come on Carrie, you have to be able to do better than that. Why not Frank, or Tobias?

Saturday, July 15, 2006 3:31:00 PM  
Blogger carrie thinks I am a total genius.

ugh.

what a story.

well told.

Saturday, July 15, 2006 5:09:00 PM  
Anonymous nicole thinks I am a total genius.

I wish like crazy that some of your stories were fiction but I know they're not. Great reads but I feel awful for these poor people. :(

Saturday, July 15, 2006 8:20:00 PM  
Blogger dan thinks I am a total genius.

At least in the end whatever good comes from it will be well-earned.

Monday, July 17, 2006 9:39:00 AM  
Blogger carrie thinks I am a total genius.

thanks you guys :) I posted this last year and I re-read my blog a few nights ago and decided to post it again cos not too many of the same people read this anymore and I thought it was an interesting story.

Monday, July 17, 2006 11:27:00 AM  
Blogger Croaker thinks I am a total genius.

It is an interesting story, you need to dig inside and creat more.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006 6:04:00 AM  

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