Thursday, August 18, 2005

just say no ho

jacque used to tell everyone she was in love with me. but she always settled for my boyfriends. even though we were together a lot, she didn't really know me at all but we had drugs in common so it worked out most of the time.

she left me with a notebook once and it was full of the kinds of secrets I would have never written anywhere.

I saw myself through her eyes. and it was very distorted. she said she didn't know if she wanted to be me or be with me.

later she said she hadn't meant to show it to me.
I lied and said I hadn't read it, but she knew.

she told me she was sleeping with her 14 year old step sister. and so was her brother.

she went on to say she let a coke dealer and his cousin tag team her, for half a gram. and they told her she was the fattest girl they'd ever banged. before they were finished.

she started losing lots of weight and she hadn't been eating anything but popsicles for weeks.
she told me she knew I would never judge her and I wondered what had given her that impression.

Blogger Tickles_Tapeworm thinks I am a total genius.

plus, she screwed butt rock britt. and vajohnna.

That's just nasty.

Thursday, August 18, 2005 1:52:00 AM  
Blogger carrie thinks I am a total genius.


Thursday, August 18, 2005 2:39:00 AM  
Blogger Shannon thinks I am a total genius.

Thats just sad.

Thursday, August 18, 2005 10:28:00 AM  
Blogger The Prynce thinks I am a total genius.

Popsicles fuckin' own.

-=The Prynce

Thursday, August 18, 2005 11:15:00 AM  
Blogger carrie thinks I am a total genius.

shannon- yes, very sad :(

prynce- may be focusing on the wrong part of the story..I don't know.

Thursday, August 18, 2005 7:16:00 PM  
Blogger Rich Rosenthal II thinks I am a total genius.

when you have drugs or booze in common people semm to think it is only the base of a much higher connection that you are very much like their drug addled idea of you.

Its hard to explain to sometimes that one will pretty much take any company one can get when stoned.

Thursday, August 18, 2005 7:27:00 PM  
Blogger Zube Girl thinks I am a total genius.

Girl, you seriously make me laugh and cry. It's like an emotional roller coaster.

Did I ever mention that I fucking love roller coasters?

Thursday, August 18, 2005 7:52:00 PM  
Blogger carrie thinks I am a total genius.

rich- yes exactly. when I quit, I lost all my friends. I think because we didn't have much in common to begin with, and if we did, my sobriety forced them to acknowledge their problem.

zube girl- I <3 roller coasters too! and your blog makes me feel much the same way. thanks

Thursday, August 18, 2005 9:37:00 PM  
Blogger Croaker thinks I am a total genius.

Good to see Zube Girl has the same feelings I do about your blog. Continue the ride.

Friday, August 19, 2005 5:47:00 PM  
Blogger The Prynce thinks I am a total genius.

No I get the point of the story... I was just pulling out the positive and there wasn't a lot to pull out.

That, and I seriously fuckin' love popsicles.

Is she ok though? I mean, are we gonna get a current report on how she's handling life these days?

-=The Prynce

Friday, August 19, 2005 5:56:00 PM  
Blogger carrie thinks I am a total genius.

croaker- thank you :)

prynce- hahaha..I never really thought starving herself was a positive point in the story, but I agree; popsicles are nice.

I was 19 the last time I saw her. I have no clue what she's doing now. my parents moved and tapeworm moved, but she could look me up if she tried. about 3 years ago someone told me she had finally given up dope and went to jobcorps, but like I said, that was three years ago. and not the most reliable source you could hope for. so, yeah, who knows.

Friday, August 19, 2005 6:24:00 PM  
Blogger jane thinks I am a total genius.

you sure know a lot of people who have sibling sex. too weird.

ps...hi you two, thanks for hanging around :)

Friday, August 19, 2005 11:08:00 PM  
Blogger carrie thinks I am a total genius.

I figger we prolly all do; I just happen to be the one they want to tell about it for some reason ;p

ps. hi jane!! glad to have you back!

Saturday, August 20, 2005 1:02:00 AM  
Blogger x0r thinks I am a total genius.

this hits, i think, almost every reality of life that 99% of the populace shuts the doors and windows to, locks them, boards them up and then sleeps hoping their dreams will be better...

doesn't work that way does it? we all wake up again...

it's kinda sad tho that when you conciously (sp?) decide to live life ACTIVELY and experience reality, this is what you find. but, luckily, you learn to accept and deal with these things- an advantage over the sleeping 99%...

Saturday, August 20, 2005 12:35:00 PM  
Blogger Danielle thinks I am a total genius.

You should write more about this bitch. She sounds pretty interesting. I wish I hadn't thrown away any of my journals. OH, WAIT! I still have my old one that I wrote in while I was vacationing in Virgina Beach when I was 15. Awesome. I also have a journal from when I was dating Rusty while we lived in that nasty old trailer. I could post entries about how the water heater broke for two whole months and we had to take showers at his brother's house and how the septic tank wasn't a septic tank at all, but an old gas barrel. When it finally filled up, it BACKED up into the pipes under the toilet and had to disconnect the pipe, which was right under the kitchen. OMG it stank so bad. I'm so glad my trailor days are gone forever!

Sunday, August 21, 2005 12:49:00 PM  
Blogger Danielle thinks I am a total genius.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that whenever we took a dump or pissed and then flushed the toilet, the crap and everything went onto the ground and that's how it ended up underneath where the kitchen was located. We would have been in so much trouble if the EPA found out about it. Hell, if we had called Roto-Rooters to come fix it, he would have called EPA and reported us, plus charge us up the fucking ass to replace the gas barrel with a new septic tank. Rusty spend his whole paycheck on weed every week, so we never would have bought that new tank. Whatever. I just go to my sister's house when I want some smoke.

Sunday, August 21, 2005 12:59:00 PM  

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